Eerieness

Have you ever watched someone from afar and felt like you know them entirely too well? That you know what they're feeling because you feel the same way? You don't know this person in real life, but you've caught glimpses of who they are and it scares you to death because he is going through nearly the very same thing that you are. And you're jealous of him because he can express himself better than you, but you savor every word of his because he expresses himself so very beautifully. And when you find out that he has found a girl to like you feel awful, because you're jealous when you shouldn't be jealous. You don't know him and he doesn't know you; you have no right to be jealous. But you are jealous, all the same. Because when you catch the few glimpses into his soul, when you read the words he's written, you feel like you are home. And you're scared and happy at the same time. And you feel a ghostly connection to this boy you've never met. But you never ever ever try to actually make a connection. You wouldn't want to add to his problems. You know how you would feel if someone intruded himself upon you. And so you hope that these eerie feelings will just go away on their own.