Birthday

I'm 21 now. And my 21st birthday wasn't too bad. It fell on a Sunday, so it wasn't much of an exciting day. I woke up at 7 in the morning to get ready for church, cause I had to teach a lesson in Relief Society at 9. And when I walked out to the kitchen to eat breakfast, I caught my roomie, Amanda, putting up balloons and streamers. She was mad that I saw before she was done, so I told her that I'd be really surprised later. Church was good. I think that my lesson went well. Actually I only taught half the lesson; we team teach in our ward. After church I opened my presents from home. I got a movie, some CDs, a book, and a journal. When I was opening up the loot, my roommates were sitting around (And Jessica's fiance was there too), so as I opened up the last bag, I pulled out this little travel kit with shampoo and soap and stuff. Then I realized that something else was still in the bag, so I pulled the other thing out. Poor Scott watched in confusion as I held up a bra! We all laughed and then I put the bra back in the bag so he wouldn't feel weird.

After that, I went over to Jamie's apartment for dinner and dessert. (Jamie is my roomie Lindsay's cousin.) We had spaghetti and for dessert, ice cream and this fudge pudding stuff. It was really good. Then we hung out and tried to play snooker on this mini-pool/snooker game that Kate got me. It didn't really work, cause the little table's surface was not flat at all.

Anyways, the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. I did like that I didn't have to go to school the next day though.

And just to add something, I've pretty much given up on a boy ever liking me, especially a boy liking me when I like him. I just don't think I'm a girl that guys are attracted to. I'm not worried about not having a boyfriend or getting married and all that. How could I be when boys don't even like me? And it especially hurts when I know that all my friends are way more attractive than me and not just in looks. People tell me not to worry, that I'm way too young to worry about relationships. I suppose that's all good and well, but it's not that comforting when you can't even start a relationship as a friend with a boy and you really have no idea how to do so.
And on top of that, I'm scared about my roommates, who are my best friends, going off and getting married and leaving me behind. I just wish I could go back to being in the 1st grade, when boys were just people I chased around the playground and I knew that my friends would be there forever.